Julie Pagano

Firebee Dispatch #9: Does it make you happy you're so strange

We’re back to our regularly scheduled program this week, but still late because things are still busy at work.

What I’m Up To

Whatever the future becomes, the bottom line is we need to value being a decent human being a hell of a lot more than we do now. Our toleration of asshole behavior must end, and it’s such an integral part of nerd culture that nuking the entire thing from orbit is the only way to be sure.


Content notice: threats of violence and sexual assault, harassment).

I repeat again:

I have a lot of thoughts about this, but don’t have the energy to write them down right now. I recommend reading my piece about Abuse as DDoS. It’s incredibly relevant.

Below are some pieces from others that cover gamergate from a few different angles.

I am the Godzilla of bitches. I have a backbone of pure adamantium, and I’m sick of seeing them abuse my friends.

Co-opting the language and posture of grievance is how members of a privileged class express their belief that the way they live shouldn’t have to change, that their opponents are hypocrites and perhaps even the real oppressors.

If the goal of Gamergate is to wipe out corruption in games journalism—if the movement isn’t merely a bunch of loosely shaped sublimated qualms about feminism and minorities—it’s doing a shit job of identifying the actual, honest-to-god problems in games writing.

All culture wars strike these same chords, because all culture wars are at bottom about the same thing: the desperate efforts of the privileged, in an ever-pluralizing America, to cling by their nails to the perquisites of what they’d thought was once their exclusive domain.

What we have in Gamergate is a glimpse of how these skirmishes will unfold in the future—all the rhetorical weaponry and siegecraft of an internet comment section brought to bear on our culture, not just at the fringes but at the center.

By using it, someone with a vested interest in a harmful status quo can appear ‘moderate’ by positioning harassers and and people fighting harassment on the opposite sides of an imaginary spectrum, suggesting that somehow the ideal lies in the middle.

Like the Tea party, like climate deniers, the group will continue to thrive as long as it’s treated as a valid interlocutor in an important discussion.

In the News

Top universities turn out black and Hispanic computer science and computer engineering graduates at twice the rate that leading technology companies hire them, a USA TODAY analysis shows.

That’s the finding of new research that shows Hispanics earn $16,353 a year less on average than their colleagues who are not Hispanic. […] In the same high-skilled positions such as computer programmers and software developers, Asians make $8,146 less than whites and blacks $3,656 less than whites, according to the report from the American Institute for Economic Research.

Mass Media Musings


In a World…

I have been meaning to see this indie film that is written by, directed, and starring Lake Bell for a while. It finally ended up on Netflix instant, so I gave it a go this weekend. It is far from a perfect film, but it has just the right mix of feminism, adorable awkwardness, and cute dialogue to please me.

As usual, here are some random bullet points. I don’t want to include too much because it would give away too many bits of the film.


How to Get Away with Murder

This is a new show from Shondaland productions that I am enjoying so far. I recommend you give it a try if you like Scandal or similar shows. It suffers from some iffy writing and direction sometimes, but Viola Davis totally makes up for it. She is amazing, and I am so glad to see her getting so much screen time.

Gilmore Girls

I continue to work my way through the very nostalgic Gilmore Girls. I’m about halfway through season 2 now. The random comments continue. They include some spoilers.

Julie’s Cooking Corner

It’s apple season, and that means it is time to make some homemade applesauce. I made some, and it was delicious. You should make some too!

homemade applesauce



My Writing

There are two new posts in the Life and Times of a Tech Feminist Killjoy series.

As a reminder, I have written a bunch about allies, a relevant topic with the recent discussions about Grace Hopper Celebration. Consider reading and sharing my posts.

Without access to twitter, I no longer have a straightforward medium to share my writing. If you enjoy my stuff, I appreciate you helping get it out there by pointing people to it.




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Things to Buy

Jessica Dillon’s amazing misandry slayer tees are back up on teespring. misandry slayer tee