Julie Pagano

Goals for 2015

I am not really a New Year’s Resolution sort of person.

resolution – A firm decision to do or not to do something.

Resolutions tend to be absolute, so one gives up on them the first time they fail. It’s all or nothing. Black and white.

I prefer to live in shades of grey. I like to set goals.

goal – The object of a person’s ambition or effort; an aim or desired result.

A goal is a thing I can work towards. If…when I fail, I can pick myself up and continue pushing towards what I want. Goals are things I can change when life requires it.

Goals feel more like working on improving as a person and less like checking off an abitrary list of things I thought were a good idea at the turn of the year. So here I am setting some goals for 2015.

Fuck the tech community (mostly)

In October 2014, I left the tech community. The plan was to leave in 2015, but I just couldn’t wait.

Maybe you understand a little bit better now why I am leaving. Maybe it doesn’t matter. I don’t need your permission. I am gone.

I am not leaving tech entirely. I like my job and being able to pay my bills. I am, however, leaving the community.

What does leaving the tech community mean? No conferences (with one exception I agreed to months ago). No speaking. No organization. No local user groups. No helping people make their events more friendly to women. No more trying to explain basic human decency to people. No more free labor. No more. No more.

I meant it. I am still gone. The only thing I regret is waiting so long to leave.

I am committed to staying out of the tech community for the duration of 2015. At the end of the year, I will re-evaluate. If I am happier, it is unlikely I will return.

There are several notable exceptions:

Self-care

One of the reasons I left the tech community is that it became all-consuming. It was bad for my sanity. It was bad for my health. I stopped having the energy or excitement to enjoy things I once loved. Things that made me a happy, healthy, well-rounded human being.

One of my major goals this year is to work at getting some of those things back. I spent years destroying them, so it will take time to get them back. It seems worth the effort.

Things to Avoid

Ceasing to do things can be as much of a goal as doing things. I have already been working on some of these, but I want to continue with that work this year.

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